Everyday is a new beginning. Take a deep breath and start again.
It seems I have taken a bit of a summer hiatus on my blog writing. Often I have felt self doubt or lack of inspiration to get back here. I have also found myself busy with other tasks, not taking the time to sit down and write. Thoughts and judgments of “why would I post about that” or “who would want to read that” kept invading my head. In the end, as I said when I started this blog, its not really about what everyone else wants, its about keeping me accountable.
If I am a writer, than that means I write. Yes, I have my journal that I have been dedicated to since my teens and I have had a daily practice since the beginning of this crazy pandemic, but the big challenge, the big ask, the leap off the ledge, is writing something AND sharing it. So here I am. Starting over. Beginning again.
Starting over can be hard, but one thing I know is that each moment of each day, each breath, is an opportunity to start again. When I would be dieting (which I try not to do these days), after eating something “off plan” I would think, “O’well I blew it for today, guess I will just keep on this path.” But the truth is, with eating, writing, living each day, once we have a thought that turns us in the wrong direction, we have the opportunity in our very next breath to change our direction. We don’t need to wait for the next day, or the start of the new week or new month, we have that very next moment, that very next breath to start again.
So here I am, starting again. And while a lot of people, including myself, feel like this first week of September, after Labor Day, does seem like a new year, it also happens to be the day that felt open to me. I finally feel like I have the space to start again. My eyes have opened and I realize I don’t have to wait until I have something mind blowing to write about, because that might never happen. I don’t have to wait for Monday, or the first of the month, I can start right now, because this is the moment I need to get back in the game and change my direction and get back up again.
So here I am, taking a breath and starting again.